No one will die if you leave here.  Settle down.  I am not relaxed either.


What’s that you say?  You had a little talk with her.  Go fuck yourself, stooge.


You think you have the right, but I have left.  What’s the big deal if something doesn’t go as planned?  Its hard to get rid of what you have already learned; my mother told me not to drink and drive so I took my bike, crashed, and died.  Although I survived I will keep that idea in mind.


I have two legs and two eyes, so when your bullshit comes along I won’t act surprised.  I can see you and I can walk away.  Do you understand?  These ideas are easy for me to convey.  What’s that you say?


I realize she is beautiful.  What if I realize she is a bitch and just needs me to feel great about how she has my attention?  I guess I have to ignore certain invites.   I choose my friends, and I am a self-destructive genius.  Could your body last?  I give it a couple of weeks and a U-haul.  I probably won’t be back this time.



Minneapolis is becoming my new love again.  I see the sun hanging higher in the sky, daily.  I feel the warmth of the sun’s rays on my coat through 3 or 4 layers of fabric.

I know it will be coming soon.


I see snow 4 to 5 feet, not inches, deep lining the sidewalk as I walk to my destination.  This snow will someday be traveling down the street as water, and then it will come to a river, end up in the ocean, go into the sky, and be back here again.  I think maybe next year.  The snow haunts me.  I pray for grass and humidity.  In the summer I hate humidity.  I have bipolar emotions.


What ever happened to thinking in the moment?  Have we lost it all?  I ask because I am thinking as if this is the past and as if summer is already here.  I see myself at the beach and I am smiling.  I can now walk around my apartment without a shirt on, in shorts.


I love you again Minneapolis, but why did you treat me so bad?



About Terry Scott Niebeling

Hello, My name is Terry Scott, a human being with flaws. twitter: @sirterryscott Buy my ebooks: http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_1/191-4788099-1818040?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=terry+scott+niebeling
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