Eleven Eighteen Ten, How I Feel About You

The thoughts and my drink aren’t near as warm as I’d like them to be.  The stolen pill-the walk in the park just after dusk, its getting dark.

Animals and wind present; I creep through the light as shadows fall behind, I close my eyes and take a deep breath.  -And move faster as I rush to class.  Clash in my head-relaxed-because of white-hidden out of sight-the past is real-life, is it gone?

Now its gone.

Do I move too fast and forget what I am?

Does she mean too much as she controls things?

I can say love exists-love is painful and has a lengthy list of expectations.  Maybe not h(n)ear?(.)

Ephemeral fleeting-misleading discrete tendencies have me seething.  And all we want is pleasing-as fast as possible, pleasing.  Content.

***

I never shower.

Who here showers? (raises your hand)

Do you shower? (walks over to man, leans down and sniffs) -Smells, ew, ew, ew.

You see-

I am screwed.

I don’t want to shower because I am competing with someone to see who has less of a Carbon Footprint (Ecological Footprint)-I don’t shower-saves water-I eat less.  I have been doing this for weeks-I just drink (he drinks a lot)-he is still fucking winning.  I don’t know why-maybe you can help?  The other guy is homeless.

The other Gentleman I am competing with in the Carbon Footprint Challenge is homeless.

***

Girl roommates-insane.

Can’t take it.

Love them- Love you-can’t take it.

***

While looking:

Dangerous bathroom is dangerous-set up to kill me; booby-trap hair curler plugged in and on-booby-trap hairdryer plugged in and on-next to the toilet and sink. Sink is clogged; takes forever to drain-they use so much drying mechanisms that they need lotion and conditioners-shit is backwards-I imagine dying when I can’t find T.P. and a hair dryer falls in the toilet as I am severely burned by a curling iron, which was lying on the floor.  I think well, at least I will have lotion to use on the burns-dystopia of feminine products.

Life is Ending.  How are your teeth?

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About Terry Scott Niebeling

Hello, My name is Terry Scott, a human being with flaws. twitter: @sirterryscott Buy my ebooks: http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_1/191-4788099-1818040?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=terry+scott+niebeling
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